Kabut di hatiku siapa yang tahu?

Waahhh...Tajuk aku malam ni dah macam tajuk lagu jiwang lakkk..hahahaha...

Bukan apa....Small matter ja...Tapi ada laaa sikit rasa tak puas hati....Nak melawan,dosa...Nak biar, sakit hatiku....Jadinya....Buat bodo je laa...Ngadu kat blog ni haa....

Keluh Kesah Puan Chot katanya....

Between husband dan kawan - Obviously husband will be my priority...Tapi dalam sesetengah situasi antara kawan dan husband, aku jadi bengong sebentar....Contoh2 situasi yang aku maksudkan:-

CONTOH 1: Bila kawan kita jemput pegi kenduri doa selamat sempena majlis tunangnya.Kawan aku jemput aku dan husband, tapi husband aku takmau pegi dengan alasan,"Alahhh...tunang je pon..Nanti kenduri kawen dia kita pi laaa..." After pujukan demi pujukan dia masih dengan keputusan takmau pi....Sedangkan aku punya laaa nak pegi majlis tunang kawan aku yang sorang ni...Haihzz..Apo nak dikata...Aku kena ikut cakap husband...

CONTOH 2 : Aku dan berjanji dengan kawan aku 2 bulan yang lalu nak temankan dia pegi Seminar...Tapi last2 minit husband dan ibu mertua ajak aku pegi balik kampong....Apo nak dikata,ku turuti jua kehendaknya....

Urghhhh....Tak larat aaaa nak taip banyak2 contoh...Yang pastinya, sekarang aku tgh menghadapi situasi yang pertama..........KECEWA-nyaaaaaaa akuuu sebab tak leh attend E-day kawan aku tu....

[Perkara.Fakta.Persoalan]

Kenapa aku rasa semacam harini??Sedih??Maybe...Jeles??Maybe...Tak puas hati??Maybe jugak...

Beberapa perkara, fakta2 dan persoalan yang aku rasa mcm aku patut rasa down sikit tapi sebenarnya tak patut pon...Fitrah kehidupan manusia..Ada yang nasib baik...Ada yg kurang bernasib baik...

Perkara 1 : Aku teringin nak pakai handphone canggih...iphone ke..Blackberry ke...
Fakta : Aku tak mampu pon nak beli handphone canggih ni....MAHAL!
Persoalan : Kenapa aku tengok orang sekeliling aku senang2 je beli handphone canggih2 ni?? If nak compare gaji, lebih kurang je....

Perkara 2 : Aku teringin nak pakai ipad...
Fakta : Kalau dah handphone canggih pon aku tak mampu, ini kan pulak ipad...MAHAL!
Persoalan : Kenapa jugak org2 sekeliling aku sesuka hati je beli ipad mcm beli ikan dekat pasar??

Perkara 3 : Aku teringin nak jadi cikgu...Ini cita2 aku dari kecik...
Fakta : Sapa suruh aku tak belajar betui2 time skolah dulu???Jadinya, jangan harap nak jadi cikgu.Cikgu lepasan IPT sekarang ni pon banyak yang tunggu posting tak dapat2 (bapak aku yang bagitau)
Persoalan : Kenapa aku tak nekad dari lepas SPM dulu aku nak jadi cikgu kalau betul cita2 aku nak jadi cikgu?Ni tak..Sambung study amik course tah pape tah....

Perkara 4 : Aku sebenarnya teringin sangat surprise birthday party or present dari husband aku....
Fakta : Jangan haraplaa! Husband aku bukan jenis yang mcm tu!
Persoalan : Apa salahnya kalau dia at least bagi aku kad??I don't really expect big present or expensive present??(kalau dapat yang mahal best gak!hehe)

Perkara 5 : Aku teringin nak jadi FULL TIME HOUSEWIFE...Macam mak aku..
Fakta : Tak mungkin kami mampu hidup dengan hanya husband aku sorang je yang bekerja.Rumah+kereta+barang dapur+Astro+Bil2 yang perlu dibayar+mcm2 lagi commitment..No!No!No!
Persoalan : Takda apa yang nak disoalkan sebab fakta dah terlalu kukuh untuk dipersoalkan..

Perkara 6 : Aku nak continue study.Nak continue Degree.Boleh demand gaji...Jeles bila tgk kawan2 semua gaji banyak.
Fakta : Nak continue Degree at least, overall fee dlm RM20k++....Hurmm....
Persoalan : Aku ada kaaa duit sebanyak itu?If buat loan PTPTN pon, aku ada commitment lain...Mampukah aku??

Perkara 7 : Aku harap aku PREGNANT dalam masa terdekat ni...Harap sangat! Crossing my fingers!
Fakta : Aku dah kawin hampir setahun..I think it's the time for me to get PREGNANT! I can't wait!
Persoalan : Adakah aku benar2 telah bersedia untuk menjadi ibu? Hanya ALLAH s.w.t sahaja yang ada jawapannya.If aku pregnant, maknanya it's the time!If belum pregnant lagi, I believe it's not my time yet...ALLAH knows better than anyone in this world.Jadi, jangan laaa sibuk2 nak ckp aku ni lambat proses laa...tak subur laa...tak pandai teknik laaa...Percayalah, kita hanya merancang, ALLAH yang tentukan... :)

Perkara 8 : Aku nakkkkkk sangat pergi bercuti...Pulau Perhentian ke, Pulau Redang ke...Anyway, Pulau is the best place to plan for a vacation!
Fakta : Dari 2 tahun lepas aku plan dgn husband aku nak bercuti kat pulau...Dari before kawen sampai laa dah kawen..dah setahun pon kawen....Tak pegi2 jugak...Haha..
Persoalan : Aku plan sekali lagi untuk pergi bercuti kat either Pulau Perhentian Kecil or Pulau Redang mid next year....Persoalannya, akan terjadikah rancangan percutian kami???Hanya masa dan rezeki yang menentukan...Insyaallah...

Perkara 9 : Aku tau hampa boring dgn post aku ni....
Fakta : Ini luahan perasaan aku....Daripada aku pendam, baik aku taip kat sini.
Persoalan : Sapa suruh hampa baca kalau dah boring dengan post aku ni?hahahaha.(mcm la ada orang nak baca)

Sekian dari aku yang tetiba rasa down dgn diri sendiri..Haha. (^_^)

Mr & Mrs Chot - Weekend Activities

What were my activities during last weekend. Below are what i did for the past few days! Hahaha!Poyo je aku..Macamlaaa artis nak bagitau aku buat apa..tapi takpa..untuk rujukan aku balik in future..Wahhh..gitulaaa aku...Feeling!

SATURDAY NITE : Wanie came and slept over at my house. We didn't sleep the whole nite and we made Caramel Pudding at 5am in the morning! These are the result!

~Before and after the Caramel Pudding had been modified by us~

SATURDAY : We went to my husband's ex-schoolmate's wedding at Putrajaya. The road was so0o0oo0 jammed until i feel like want to....to....to....sleep...hehe...takde gambo...i only took one pic of me in the car.

 

SUNDAY NITE : Me, my husband, Wanie & Wan decided to watch movie but before that, we went to Oldtown White Coffee near my house area to have our dinner. Then, we went for a movie at GSC Pavi - Rapunzel 3D!It was an awewome movie as this was one of my favourite fairytale during my childhood. But i was too tired and sleepy due to my sleepless nite&day (i haven't had enough sleep this time) so, i fall asleep during this movie.Serious!I've forced my eyes to keep watching the movie but......I'm still sleepy....So, i know it was a great story and I'll definitely go and watch this movie again!Definitely!

~Me & my husband at Oldtown : Pretending to avoid the Papparazzi~

~Rapunzel 3D VS my husband wearing the 3D glass~

We arrived home around 4am and straight away sleep. We woke up at 12pm the next day!

SUNDAY : As i mentioned above, we both woke up at 12pm. Go shower, basuh baju, sidai baju, kemas rumah, vacuum satu rumah dan buat semua kerja2 yang berkaitan dengan kekemasan rumah. End up rumah takde laaa kemas mane pon..saje je nak propa....heheh...After dah settle semua, me and my husband bersiap untuk hantar adik aku,Aidil balik UNITEN. (Lupe nak bagitau my 3 brothers dtg melepak kat rumah aku since now is school holiday). Me, my husband, Aidil, Afiq & Iiman went out about 3pm.

1. Our 1st destination is UNITEN - to send Aidil back to campus.

2. 2nd destination : We went for a movie at Cineleasure, The Curve - Ngangkung!

3. 3rd destination : Balik rumah laaa....

We arrived Cineleasure at 6pm. Our movie time was 7.15pm....What did we do during this 1hour gap?

1. 1st activity : Eat Lecka Lecka ice-cream!Yummy!

2. 2nd activity : Waited for En Chot BERAK..punya laaa lama dia pi melepas...Haihhh..

3. 3rd activity : Went down to Ground floor of Cineleasure and went in to RM5 magazines&book store. I bought 6 books equals to RM30.Haha...Saje nak perabih duit!

4. 4th activity : Solat Maghrib dulu before movie....

5. 5th activity : Sempat lagi beli popcorn!

6. Final activity : Masuk panggung laaa...Tgk cita Ngangkung!

Result : Best jugak cita ni! Lawakkkkk....Out of 5 stars, I give 4 stars...

~Serious! Lawak cita ni!~

~Ni laa buku-buku RM5 yang aku beli tu..hihi~

P.U.D.I.N.G C.A.R.A.M.E.L

Tau tak apa yang saya teringin sangat nak makan sejak seminggu yang lalu tapi tak dapat2 sampai semua makanan lain yang saya makan pon tak rasa sedap????Jawapannya ialah PUDING CARAMEL atau dlm bahasa org Melayunya Kuih Gula Hangus ke ape tah namanya....yang kaler kuning pastu ade kuah kaler perang tu....Haa....Time bulan posa,kat bazar ramadhan ramai org jual...

Bukannya taknak buat sendiri tapi takde lak periuk kukus kat rumah aku tu....Bahan2 semua aku dah beli....

Tapi, kalau boleh aku nak yang beli punya...Hurmmm...Susah pulak nak cari Puding ni di saat aku sangat memerlukannya...cewahhh...ayat tak leh blah!

So,aku decide mlm ni nak mencuba buat puding caramel ni since aku pon dah pinjam periuk kukus dari mak mertua aku...hihi...

Tungggggggguuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu hasilnya! Nanti aku upload ye... Peace!

B'day Present from Fana & Miki

I received my very 1st Birthday present from Fana&Miki!!! I know I sounded so 'jakun' sebab dapat hadiah..hehehe....nak buat camne...harapkan sorg tu bagi aku hadiah, memang sampai ke tua laaa aku tak dapat..because it's just him...He's not that kind of guy yang beria2 nak buat surprise ke..bagi hadiah ke..No...Not him.Hurmmmmmmm...Looks like I'm a bit SAD with this...No.No.I think I'm just take this so seriously..Shouldn't be this way.

Back to the story-Fana gave me birthday present!!!Auwwww...I love the present that she gave me..Seriously!

Well, thanx Fana coz gave me the present. Actually I'm touched!I am...Yes I do...And suddenly i miss those moments in Flora Damansara.Really....Living with Fana is quite challenging!Hahaha...Sebab mulut dia laser wei!!Hehehe...But it's fun living together with her. One thing is because we both love to do same things together like shopping, hanging out, singing, play keyboard (she taught me how to play), play guitar (i dunno how to play but she knows!) and swimming ( i dunno how to swim.haha)...Another thing is kitorang satu ofis...So, time pi keja sesama.Time balik, kekadang singgah The Curve...Merapu2 kat sana...Hehe.Plus, our housemate (Kak Nani & Shida) is also very very FUN!

Okla..Tanak laa sembang merapu2...Tapi aku betul2 rindu masa stay kat Flora Damansara tu...Betul ni....Tak tipu...

Ni laa gambo hadiah yang Fana and her husband-to-be bagi kat aku! (^_^)

Ni laa hadiahnya!! -Bodyshop-

Strawberry -i like!-

Ini lotion nya!

Ini shower gel nya!

Handmade Birthday Card for Fana

Setelah keboringan yang melampau melanda diriku di ofis, telah aku siapkan sekeping kad birthday (handmade okay!) khas utk my best buddy ever>>Fana! It's her 25th Birthday! Actually b'day Fana 15th November tapi aku baru buat harini kad besday untuknya....Hehe.

Tadi, tetiba teringat zaman skolah kat Convent dulu...Aku dgn Fana dan kawan2 yang lain semua terkena penyakit nak buat kad handmade...Konon2 nak menunjukkan creativity masing2 laaa.....Since i left Convent, aku dah jarang buat kad2 handmade ni...Takde masa laa weii nak jadi creative tetiba ni...haha...

Jadi, aku pon cuba laaa buat b'day card untuk Fana....Nak tgk skit otak aku yang dah menjangkau usia 25 tahun ni masih creative ka???Erm...Ni lah hasilnya...Aku tau, lepas hampa tgk kad aku ni mesti hampa kata, "Uishh...creative sungguh Faten ni!Cantikk kad besday ni.." Hahaha..Aku tau....Sesiapa yang rasa kad ni langsung tak lawa / tak creative, hampa JELES sebenaqnya! Hahahaha.... Sila lihat di bawah:-

~Pandangan Hadapan~

~Pandangan Belakang~

New Niece in Da House!!

Last Tuesday, 16th November 2010 I got another new niece!!! Excited gila! When I look at her my pressures are all gone...It's a mysterious feelings that can't be revealed through words...I look at her small tiny face, hold her in my arms and all my stress and strain and whatsoever we called as tense is vanished...I just look at her and smile and deep down inside my heart I feel my mind in peace...Well, that is weird how a baby can release our tense…

Her parents haven’t decide her name yet..So, let’s just call her “baby”…

Nahhh…Look at her photos and feel the serene that she brought to our mind…

Well, I still think it’s so mysterious!Haha…

I'm craving for Macarons!

I want French Macarons! I want French Macarons! I want French Macarons! It is so extremely tempting! Aku nak letak banyak2 gambar macarons ni...Selamat mencuci mata dan enjoy!

Yummy!tempting kan?kan?

oh macarons!

nakk...nakk...

~macarons my macarons~

Hunger for Foods!

Hurmm...Secara jujurnya aku nak bagitau perut aku sentiasa lapar...Always hunger for delicious food..Fast food!Cakes!Rice!Meat!Fattening foods!Of course,taste-good-food contains more calories then tasteless food mcm sayur ke.ikan kukus ke..Euwww..How can they call that a food..Tak sedap la!Food!Food!Food!Good Food!Great taste!

Big fat me!Badan makin besar.Baju makin kecik.Haha!I don't care!Whatever.Eating yummy foods is a good therapy after shopping!

Now,i wanna go out and pegi makan...i have pizza or McD or Kenny Rogers in my mind rite now...Gotta go..I'm H.U.N.G.R.Y already!

Aku yang baru terhegeh-hegeh nak FURTHER STUDY!

Helloooo!Lama jugak aku tak update blog ni...Sebab kesibukan yang disengajakan dan MALAS nak menaip..Takdak idea sampai laaaa today..baru terfikir nak tulis apa dlm blog ni!Hihi...

Saya nak further study!..(Kesian aku...Di kala kawan2 aku semua dah habis degree dgn jayanya, aku masih terkial2 cari IPT yang sesuai untuk continue study since aku ni nak cari yang part time je)

Bapak aku ada terbaca satu advertisement (UIA) kat dlm paper..Pastu dia pon gunting advertisement tu and tunjuk kat aku.Aku yang sebenaqnya dah baca advertisement tu...Jauh di sudut hati aku(ewaahh...) memang aku nak laaa continue..Tapi disebabkan aku ni banyak sgt komitmen (aku sendiri yang cari pasal nak ada komitmen banyak2), aku diam je laaa...Hutang dah banyak, bila sambung ni lagi bertambah hutang aku dgn PTPTN...haha...Hutang time diploma pon aku dok bayar RM50 je monthly..hahah...kesian kat aku!ni nak tambah lagi around RM19k++ untuk Degree...Haihhzzz....


Maka,aku pon apply laa dengan penuh dedikasi....Hantar semua form2 dan sijil2 kepada mereka yang berkenaan.....Tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu..Akhirnya aku dapat reply letter and then offer letter.. Alhamdulillah...aku insan yang paling gembira....Plus, mak pak aku happy gila..I live my life to see them happy.cewaahh...Harap aku boleh bagi mak pak aku bangga dengan diri aku setelah aku jugak yang mengecewakan mereka dgn keputusan SPM ku yang macam haram 8 tahun dulu....huhuu..


Hurmm...A bit about the part time Bachelor programme at UIA. Classes will be held during weekend – 1st & 3rd week every month. There'll be 11 semesters in total spanning 3 years 10 months. 3 semesters in a year.Jan. & June will be normal semester and Nov. will be short semester. Normal semester = 4 1/2 months long. Short semester = 2 1/2 months long. Must complete 120 credit hours to graduate which includes 36 courses plus 1 component of Project Paper, carrying 12 credit hours (Okay,this Project Paper thingy really freakin me out..Can i do it??Errrr...Insya'allah.)

Sebenarnya, aku risau jugak…Takut nanti lama2 aku malas nak gi kelas sebab malas..Tau2 laaa kan..time weekend..selalunya bangun lambat…sekarang ni every 1st & 3rd week, kena bangun awal pegi kelas one whole day!mati aku…tapi, kalau auntie aku yang dah kawen and ada anak boleh buat part time degree, takkan aku yang takda anak ni takleh kan???Plus, auntie aku dah Grad dah pon…It’s just about DISCIPLINE laaa…Insyaallah, aku akan cuba mendisiplinkan diri aku selama 3 tahun ++ ni…

Anyway, Alhamdulillah as I’m accepted to continue my study at UIA in Executive Bachelor in Business Management. Pray for my success ya!

Love,

~fatenz~

Aku xmau balik KL!

KENAPALA AKU XMAU BALIK KL??SEBAB AKU XMAU BALIK KL...XMAU..XMAU..HUWAAAA..

To My Dear Friend...

I'm so sad and speechless the moment i knew this story...To my dear friend (you know who you are), i hope you'll be the strongest person in the world...I hope you may live your life with full of happiness...I'm sure u'll find the right man in ur life one day...Insyaallah...

Dear friend, when u feel like u're lost, please pray to ALLAH and let HIM show u the right path as we all know ALLAH will always be there for us...

Dear friend, deep in your heart this is hurting u so badly but i'm convinced that you'll be just fine where u always have ur family and friends to support u everytime u need them...And i'll definitely be one of them to always be there for u if u need someone to talk to...

Dear friend, please please please be strong...be strong...be strong...i know,u can go through all these hardness in ur life....because there's always a reason for everything that happened in our life....

I'll pray for your happiness,joy,laughter,success and everything in ur life, dear friend! U're the most strongest and coolest person i ever meet...May ALLAH Bless u for the whole life through! Amin....

Love,

~ur friend~